This piece has not been an easy one for me to write or think about. There is much that I would like to forget and get past.
Also, I searched my motivation for this piece and concluded: it is based primarily upon the belief – life is the great classroom and we learn much from personal, every day experience.
About 2 months ago I was in hospital with a heart attack; now after the shock waves have subsided a bit, I have had time to reflect on all of this. Also, I am still occupied with the after effects. I am in cardiac rehab, changing certain life habits and still don’t have all my strength or heart capacity back; in multiple ways, this experience has clearly affected members of my family.
Some learning happens right away and other lessons take longer; both the doctors and EMT’s said I was lucky to be alive. There was a 100% blockage in my major heart artery and 60% in another; they have a nick-name for this particular attack: ‘the widow maker.’
Fortunately, I was at a family Thanksgiving dinner when this occurred and people acted quickly.
Sometimes, I still wonder why I am here. Perhaps there is more that I have to do, accomplish and enjoy.
Anyway, while I try to work this out, so far here are 11 things I learned and seem to have relearned again. In some way, I hope sharing this helps.
• Life is fragile and may be over in an instant.
• Flesh is weak and can be broken; yet spirit fights and lives on.
• In order to heal, you need a support system and love of others.
• After an event like this, fears, pains and sorrows are shared by those who love you.
• When pain enters – it is a game changer- often bringing you to your knees.
• Enjoy this moment – it is all you have. If there is something you want to do- do it now.
• Why one lives and another dies, is beyond our understanding.
• Be kind and generous to others. That is what the Universe wants. Suffering shows you this.
• We carry within the seeds of our own destruction and end.
• Death is part of life; they are tied to one another.
• Healing can be difficult and take a long time.
Now after reading this list, if you would like to share what you learned through personal adversity, I encourage input.
God/Light willing, may you continue to be healthy, growing closer to your lasting self.
-SB
